Breast Cancer Awareness
I AM A BREAST CANCER SURVIVOR….
When my doctor confirmed that I had breast cancer, I left her office returned to my car, smiled at the woman pulling out of her parking spot, and wham! Started crying, not a whimper cry but a hard and audible cry (not caring if anyone in the parking lot could hear me).
I don’t think my cry was about fear…it was more of a release. You know how strong we women can be in a crisis; fully functioning, thinking of everything that needs to be done, comforting others, preparing food, just busying ourselves to stave off the reality of what really is happening inside us. And afterwards, when the last guest has gone and the dishes cleaned, when the beds are turned down and everyone is tucked in, then maybe in a closet or some place out of reach from anyone interrupting….we just let the water well explode! The tears flow, the shoulders shake until finally we are exhausted.and we slowly melt into that featherbed of peace.
If you are a breast cancer survivor, chances are you had it rougher than I did. Mine was at zero stage…no chemo or radiation…just a mastectomy. That was in 2002.
Chances are that you and I also share a deeper love of life and friends; a more open understanding of compassion and a stronger willingness to be of help to other women marching in the cancer crusade. If that is so, then you also know the special gift that cancer has given us. It is that gift that I like to share with others.
As a humorist, I tend to look at life from the “funny side”…
Let me help you learn to see life through laughter, not fear…
Look for me beside you in the next walk or cancer event..
I’ll be proud to be along side you.
I won’t go on and on about it. Just wanted to share a sliver of it with you, though you were right there with me. I’m beginning to unravel the layers and layers of deep emotion after all this time. Hell, I’d kind of forgotten what I learned from it all, and how it changed the way I live my life. Rich’s and my post-cancer motto is ” Get out the good china, and USE IT.” What are we saving it for? That’s why we moved down here! We had a dream of living in Mexico”some day”, and we realized through the cancer that we just plain didn’t know how many ‘some days’ we had left. Get out the good china.
Your love helped me stay strong.
I love you,
“We’re All Walking Around With It” features Suzie’s bout with breast cancer.