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Breast Cancer Awareness

Suzie’s a SURVIVOR!

I AM A BREAST CANCER SURVIVOR….

When my doctor confirmed that I had breast cancer, I left her office  returned to my car, smiled at the woman pulling out of her parking spot,  and wham!  Started crying, not a whimper cry but a hard and audible cry (not caring if anyone in the parking lot could hear me).

I don’t think my cry was about fear…it was more of a release.   You know how strong we women can be in a crisis; fully functioning, thinking of everything that needs to be done, comforting others, preparing food, just busying ourselves to stave off the reality of what really is happening inside us. And afterwards, when the last guest has gone and the dishes cleaned, when the beds are turned down and everyone is tucked in, then maybe in a closet or some place out of reach from anyone interrupting….we just let the water well explode!  The tears  flow, the shoulders shake until finally we are exhausted.and we slowly melt into that featherbed of peace.

If you are a breast cancer survivor, chances are you had it rougher than I did.  Mine was at zero stage…no chemo or radiation…just a mastectomy.  That was in 2002.

Chances are that you and I also share a deeper love of life and friends; a more open understanding of compassion and a stronger willingness to be of help to other women marching in the cancer crusade.  If that is so, then you also know the special gift that cancer has given us.  It is that gift that I like to share with others.
As a humorist, I tend to look at life from the “funny side”…
Let me help you learn to see life through laughter, not fear…

Look for me beside you  in the next walk or cancer event..
I’ll be proud to be along side you.

Suzie


This is my beautiful, funny and amazingly strong friend,  Robin.

Five years ago, while pregnant with her second child, robin was diagnosed with breast cancer. Today she is running around like crazy, taking care Of two beautiful daughters and teaming with her husband to live life to it’s fullest. She gave me permission to share with you this letter she wrote to her mom …
Dearest Mom,It has been 5 years this Thanksgiving since my last Cancer treatment, and you want to know something interesting?  I’m just now beginning to process the whole experience.  It began just last week.  All of a sudden, out of nowhere, I started to re-live that time in my life.  I remembered how I felt and what I learned from it all.  THAT was the cool part.  I’ll tell you what, I wouldn’t trade that experience for anything.  I learned SO MUCH about myself, about vanity and what it means ( and what doesn’t mean!)  I learned  how it felt to be invisible—-where strangers hadn’t the courage to look you in the eyes  or, God forbid, speak to you.  I learned how terrified people are of sickness and disease.  I made people very uncomfortable—no one knew how to handle it, so they just looked away.  Now these are strangers I’m talking about.  My family was AMAZING. But in public I was a freak.  Within a very short period of time I went from a beautiful woman in the prime of my life to a frightening looking pregnant lady with no hair or eyebrows.  What a head trip.  Chemo aged me too, so I’ve never been the same.  Bye bye youth.  Ironically, it was that experience that I learned the most from and got the most out of in the end.  So much.  We learn so much from this terrible disease, don’t we?  So very much.  We might as well go up a step or two on this spiritual journey as the Holy Spirit shows us who we really are, and he did.  I am different, more sure of who I am now. More me and I like me a lot.

I won’t go on and on about it.  Just wanted to share a sliver of it with you, though you were right there with me.  I’m beginning to unravel the layers and layers of deep emotion after all this time.  Hell, I’d kind of forgotten what I learned from it all, and how it changed the way I live my life.  Rich’s and my post-cancer motto is ” Get out the good china, and USE IT.”  What are we saving it for?  That’s why we moved down  here!  We had a dream of living in Mexico”some day”, and we realized through the cancer that we just plain didn’t know how many ‘some days’ we had left.  Get out the good china.

Your love helped me stay strong.


I love you,
Robin

“We’re All Walking Around With It” features Suzie’s bout with breast cancer.

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